No wonder why!

Yesterday, I was with my boyfriend. He threw news at my face and he told me that a rumor has spread throughout our former church that we already got married. He told me that his mom talked to one of their leaders and that leader told his mom that we have already engaged in matrimony. I just laughed and smiled coz I am already used to them throwing false stories on me, my boyfriend and my family. And I have nothing to prove coz no marriage really exists. Is this a kind of insult for me again? Is this the kind of blessing they would share to their members (former leaders)? Blessings of rumor, false stories and gossip? That if one leader or member is no longer attending then they will assume such stories? But I thought they are growing? I thought leaders have been attending trainings and seminars? Is this the kind of teaching they have been thought? What a shame. As much as I don’t want to commit sin again from their lousy mouths, unfortunately, I am again. So that’s why. No wonder why God has been punishing them, from lack of staff, poor finance from tithes and offering collections, less attendance, workers and leaders, members moving out and attending other churches, etc! No wonder!  I just pray they will realize what needs to be improved from their leadership and from their church standing. Remember? You thought me this: “Your kind of members will determine what kind of leader you are”. And from the hint of it, I’m beginning to track where the rumor came from. I don’t care anymore if what are they going to say next. I just do hope and pray that God won’t add their agony and distress from their lousy little mouths and dirty minds. Then you stand in front of the pulpit and preach? Lead worship? Lead prayer and intercession? Pray for greater blessing? Nah! You’re just wasting your time. Even if it really hurts, I really have to agree to one person about this: “Maybe the Holy Spirit has departed from your church because of your attitudes and you have been blind about it”. And I have to admit, there was a bit of disappointment again. I think my friends are right. So I may no longer sin with them by my side, I’ll find another church who can welcome me open arms without stabbing nor talking at my back anymore.

May God Bless them a hundred times fold!

At last.... Finally watched it!

I just can't stop crying inside SM Clark cinema during the Sa'yo Lamang movie experience... Finally! I had the chance to watch it. ^0^ I am so happy coz after weeks of stress from work with huge dump of loans, I had the chance to chill out with my bf and watch the movie. :) (And I watched the movie twice! hehehehehe)

I was so struck with emotions while watching this movie. I never realized my self and my worth not until I watched Star Cinema’s “Sa’yo Lamang” by Laurice Guillen featured by abs-cbn. I saw myself on Dianne’s character (Bea Alonzo) who worked and stood up as a daughter, a sister, and a father to her family when Franco (Christopher De Leon) left them with another woman. It was a hell of a movie. Awesome! *Two thumbs up* @_@. It was one of the best movies I have watched of my 21 years of existence. No wonder why abs-cbn remains as one of the top most rated tv stations and star cinema as one of the best movie productions all over the country and internationally. (Sorry GMA 7, admit it. You just can’t do better what kapamilya has now) Great movie and I recommend it best to watch it, feel it, and love it! Grab it on your nearest mall cinema before its too late. (See movie summary snopshot below image) 

Here is the source link:

 http://www.movienews.me/2010/08/sayo-lamang-movie-trailer-plot-summary.html

Sa'yo Lamang Plot Summary/Synopsis

The story of Sa'yo Lamang movie revolves around Dianne Alvero (Bea Alonzo) who was left with the responsibility of taking care of her siblings played by Coby (Coco Martin), James (Enchong Dee) and Lisa (Miles Ocampo). When their father (Christopher de Leon) comes back, she finds it difficult to forgive him. Will love, faith and forgiveness prevail during the most trying times in their life?

While her siblings and mother easily accepted her father, Dianne doesn't find it easy to welcome him in her heart because he has left them for ten years and has broken his promise long time ago. Will she ever forgive him?
Coby is the black sheep of the family. We will later find out that he has impregnated his girlfriend (Shaina Magdayao). Does Coby really wants to get out of the family? Or does just want to feel loved by the very persons he was trying to get away from?

James and Lisa are longing for the love of their father. But which side will they choose? The sister who have taken care of them from the start or the father whose warmth they crave so much for?

Amanda Alvero (Lorna Tolentino), the mother of the family, just wants to have a complete family. Is there something in her that she is not telling her family?

Sa'yo Lamang Cast and Characters

Here are the cast and characters of the touching family movie Sa'yo Lamang:

Lorna Tolentino as Amanda Alvero
Christopher de Leon as Mr. Alvero
Bea Alonzo as Dianne Alvero
Coco Martin as Coby Alvero
Enchong Dee as James Alvero
Miles Ocampo as Lisa Alvero
Diether Ocampo
Shaina Magdayao
Zanjoe Marudo
Empress Schuck
Lauren Young as Lorraine
Igi Boy Flores
Dominic Ochoa

Sa'yo Lamang Official Movie Trailer

Sa'yo Lamang movie trailer starts with a home blessing presenting all the family members. And then the father came in and this is where the drama begins. The are rolls of heated dialogues between Bea Alonzo and Coco Martin and between Coco Martin and Enchong Dee. We also see Enchong Dee punching Coco Martin, and Christopher De Leon also punching Coco Martin.

One notable moment is the kissing scene between Enchong Dee and Lauren Young in the pool. And then there are more crying scenes between Bea Alonzo and Lorna Tolentino.

Reflections...

It has been almost 2 years working with jpmc. I can say that It was never the same since I started working in this account as one of the pioneers during the pilot stage. Days, weeks, and months passed by, changes and adjustments came along. But it was only then that I realized that there is nothing permanent in this world but change itself. Everything almost changed, everyone I used to be with are almost gone and here am I, welcoming myself for new set of friends. I miss the old stage. I miss them, I miss the way that the account used to be, I missed everything that made me a better person ever since I became a part of jpmc. I miss Ate Kath Laforteza, I miss Aaron, one of my closest friends, I miss them all. And what I miss above all is how I walked as a channel of blessing for others even though I worked outside the ministry. Damn, I miss that so much. :)

But let me introduce myself. If the Bible has Jonah, in reality, you have me. I am a christian but full of compromise and worldy affections. And that's why I create this blog. I want to be a blessing of how I used to be, and how I felt passion for my ministry. :) It has been almost a year since I left the ministry and decided to leave everything AGAIN! for the nth time. Believe me, it was a hell of a shit to deal on. But still grateful for I am surviving even away from the presence of God. Grateful for his grace to be with me still. I am still grateful. :)
Godbless you all!!! :)